today i skipped church and went to starbucks instead. bad me. i still love Jesus. i just get sick of pretending everything’s hunky dory in my life with other people who are also pretending. it’s so shallow. i need raw, honest community where people aren’t afraid to show their true selves- the good, bad, and the ugly. i’ve tried to find this kind of community, but i’ve failed, and it’s pretty discouraging. i wish there was a church more like an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting (i’ve never actually been to one, but I’ve seen enough movies and television to guess…)
i found the coziest brown pull-over sweater at Target this afternoon. it is soft and a looser style- like something an old man would wear. it makes me think of Fall hikes, cozy evenings with coffee and a good book, and campfires. exciting day for me! (pathetic that a sweater makes me this ecstatic)
speaking of good books- i am LOVING my latest read: The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein. it is very interesting- written through the perspective of a dog. i can’t put it down for long. and that reminds me. i want a dog in the worst way. i am partial to boxer mixes and labs, but when the time comes i will probably go to the humane society and fall in love with the first dog i see. but for now i am waiting for a more ideal living situation for a dog (small apartments and big dogs do not work together). and until then i live vicariously through all my friends with dogs. (in fact i dog-sit a lot, if people want to pay me money to play with their dogs, i’m not going to complain).
i caved and purchased a pair of Merrell hiking shoes today. i probably shouldn’t have, but i have been itching to get out for a hike/trail run and my old sneaks just weren’t cutting it. my new ones are lightweight, waterproof, Gore-Tex lined, and have excellent traction for those slick rocks on the trail. (not to mention they happen to be super cute, too. score!)
well…hunger draws nigh. so good day.